Purpose that Passion

They say, "If you can't figure out your purpose, figure out your passion. For your passion will lead you directly to your purpose." But is that really true? Throughout my life I have had phases where I absolutely love one thing and am obsessed with that one thing for the longest while, until I find a new fad that at that moment I can't see myself living without. And then I move on to something else. I remember as a little girl drawing was my thing; I felt invincible. I could write stories with my drawings, express my little thoughts, and feel like a true artist. That "passion" lasted for a while, but as years passed and I got older, things changed. Later, for a hot minute, I thought I wanted to follow in my mother's footsteps and be a teacher; that was short lived, as I figured out that I truly don't have the patience for all of that nonsense, and that a truly good teacher loves what she does. That wasn't me. When I got into middle school,  I loved fashion. I swore up and down that that's what I was going to be when I grew up: a fashion designer. I drew sketches, but that's about as far as I got. I didn't have the patience to learn how to sew either!!! Acting shortly followed, but only because I loved Disney Channel! And at that time who wouldn't die if they met Hannah Montana?! Yes! That was me, but my mother saved me by not letting me get much farther than the kitchen as my stage. High school came along and I was feeling like journalism was the thing! I loved making up weather reports and acting like I knew what I was talking about. And then I got lazy. That word laziness is something else. If we pay too much attention to it and let it seep into our lives, we aren't going anywhere!

Now, three years after graduating high school and a few months after graduating college with and Associates, I am sitting in my living room applying to all the jobs imaginable. Even washing the dishes. The struggle is real and it took me this long to figure that out. So I ask myself, now what? I studied Administration and I don't love it. I find it boring sitting at a desk all day. I need action, different scenarios, not a routine. And the thing is, if I knew what my purpose and passion were that would probably help a lot.

Let's see, things I like doing:

• Talking
• Being funny 
• Creating (when I want to, not because I have to)
• Writing (when I want to, not because I have to)
• And that's all I can think of now....

So, not all of us know out of the get go what we are to do, feeling a little lost or just bored, unhappy! For now, I'm pretty much keeping my house company when my friends are working. [And let me just say that I'm quite upset that summer is almost over and we've probably had one or two decent hot days. Winter better be a hot one.] As of now the only thing I've got is that I care for my people. That's about it. But don't get me wrong, I'm not Mother Theresa either. Lol

What are your thoughts on finding a purpose, a passion?